Bittersweet

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My 4th Album - katagilife.com

- All songs in English except *Japanese **Bilingual songs

1/ a bad boy (beat from 'hustlin' by the game)
*2/ ai to pride (tony sway)
**3/ alien azyn (beat from 'runaway love' by ludacris)
4/ bittersweet (serious beats)
**5/ fireworks (beat from 'fireworks' by drake)
6/ home (beat from 'realer than you think' by king phaze)
**7/ konnichiwa bitches (jb the philosophy)
**8/ monster (one tone and vibe beats)
9/ one fire (serious beats)
10/ sandcastles (emomarie)
11/ smoke in mirrors (spaced out kid)
12/ the silence and the sadness (instrumental by the agalloch)
*13/ touch click (beat from 'unforgettable' by drake)
14/ we gets high (zone beats)

- All beats used for non-profit use.
- Half the vocals were recorded and mixed on an iPhone 3G, in my bedroom, using GarageBand.
- The other half were recorded and mixed on on a Fostex VF-80 .

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released October 1, 2013

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katagi 東京都, Japan

Bilingual emcee born and raised in Vancouver Canada but currently residing in Tokyo Japan.

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Track Name: a bad boy
1. [A BAD BOY]

I'm a bad boy but you're a boring man
so what the fuck you fighting for?
I fight to do me despite all the odds
and I see the cold stares so I'm a scream like I'm scared
but instead of giving up I'm a dream like I'm there
so what the fucks your problem? don't stop my flow
I won't stop rapping this all I know
so like I said before
don't stop my flow

I got the mic and I'm gonna talk
I know you're sick of this but I don't give a cock
my heart broke like... like AI
but I still got more baskets than you, ain't I?
my gear damaged but at least it's used
you haven't done shit with yours, that's why you're new
they say I stopped rapping, well yeah, you're right
I emotionally read this shit for life

I'm a bad boy but you're a boring man
so what the fuck you fighting for?
I fight to do me despite all the odds
and I see the cold stares so I'm a scream like I'm scared
but instead of giving up I'm a dream like I'm there
so what the fucks your problem? don't stop my flow
I won't stop rapping this all I know
so like I said before
don't stop my flow

never hold me down, naw

I need new sneakers, need some New Balance
a little perspective, I'll try to be objective
you object to this? well, I object to you
I'll wash out your brains with some lighter fuel
mother fuckers

I'm a bad boy
but you're a boring man
Track Name: ai to pride
2. [AI TO PRIDE] * Japanese

昨日の失敗
で今日苦しむ
キズでいっぱい
絆を信じる
浮気されても
それ許す自分
負けたくないからかな
I Forgive You
だから今日も言う
いつもまでも一緒
だけど嘘かも
そんな気がする
地獄越えて
ヘブンに行きたい
亡くなった親父
とChillしたい

何も見えない 遠くを見てても
返事さえ聞こえない 耳をすましても
会話はナンセンス 時間は流れる
愛さえも ナンセンス 過去は消えてく

殴られても
顔は平然
だけど本当は
痛くてしょうがない
人に言われる
Gotta Say Good Bye
だけど言えない
それが僕のプライド
壊れそうで
どうにもならない
何日持つかな
Until The Day I Die
カウントダウンが始まって 一年
そんな勇気もない 言葉だけ

何も見えない 遠くを見てても
返事さえ聞こえない 耳をすましても
会話はナンセンス 時間は流れる
愛さえも ナンセンス 過去は消えてく
Track Name: alienazyn
3. [ALIENAZYN]

everyday I contemplate killing myself
everyday I'm still here, still mysefl
everyday I'm wondering why I'm here
not meant to be here, I'm some sort of alien

born on earth, die in the ocean
real silent, quiet, no commotion
I'm not boasting, pain ain't cool
just telling you the facts man
as a matter of fact
and if you don't like it
that's too bad
I don't like myself either
but I'm all I have
and music is my savior
my drug of choice
if it wasn't for this here
I wouldn't even be here

間違った国で生まれた
いや、間違ったplanetで生まれた
間違った親に育てられ
間違った選択ばかりで
文句じゃねぇよ 事実だ
神がいないのも事実か?
そう思いたくねぇけど思ってしまう
思いたくねぇけど思ってしまう

everyday I contemplate killing myself
everyday I'm still here, still mysefl
everyday I'm wondering why I'm here
not meant to be here, I'm some sort of alien
Track Name: bittersweet
4. [BITTERSWEET]

I'm lost
in a maze
purple haze
gun smoke
endless days
battle field
blood shed
I don't feel
no more
no hope
no lies
beauty lies
yes it lies
fake people
dirty hearts
don't believe
what people say
if you believe
than you'll be slain
sleeplesss, codeine
numb the pain (away)

fuck this world
and everybody in it
fuck this world
cause everyone be sinning
beginning of the end
end of the beginning
I hope for the latter
I pray

fuck this world
and everybody in it
fuck this world
cause everyone be sinning
beginning of the end
the end of the beginning
I hope for the latter
I pray

downtown eastside
pain resides
you'll never know
my shoes
so worn
my heart
no home
hope for the hopeless
we buy fantasies
gold for the penniless
we buy a lot of dreams
we gotta go
keep walking
keep talking
trying, falling, hating, loving
this the life
no test
drive

.........

fuck this world
and everybody in it
fuck this world
cause everyone be sinning
beginning of the end
the end of the beginning
I hope for the latter
I pray

fuck this world
and everybody in it
fuck this world
cause everyone be sinning
beginning of the end
the end of the beginning
I hope for the latter
I pray
Track Name: fireworks
5. [FIREWORKS]

fireworks in the night sky in July
fireworks in the night sky in August
now it's cold I'm alone in my room
my heart be burning but my hands be freezing
girl, I don't know if you love me
but if you're playing games don't bother
cause I got girls calling a couple offers
but I turn them down for us
cause still believe in you

we had a couple fights
それは嘘さ 毎晩のように殴り合い
愛してるからかな 傷つけあう
分からなくなる この関係
俺は計算が下手さ できない
だから何も考えずに 愛
を信じて生きてるだけ
だけど uh I'm not innocent
my hands are dirty got blood on them
I should of never said the things that I did
now they spinning out of control in you head
and that's the reason you don't kiss me before we go to bed
and it's okay cause I'm used to that
but you not and it's not okay with me
遊んでるようで本当は
君のこと意外はどうでもいい

fireworks in the night sky in July
fireworks in the night sky in August
now it's cold I'm alone in my room
my heart be burning but my hands be freezing
girl, I don't know if you love me
but if you're playing games don't bother
cause I got girls calling a couple offers
but I turn them down for us
cause still believe in you

when you met me
俺はcharismatic
今は何も無い
but u still with me
so what does that say?
a kind of destiny
you don't understand but I still believe
同じ方向を向いて空を見る
星なんか流れ無くてもいい
群がる☆たちをみて
君の手と俺の手
ぬくもりを感じるかい?
それとも切なさだけ?
答えなくてもいい今は
目を閉じて二人で
祈ろう
God thank you for giving us us
cause still believe in you

秘密の一つや二つは
は誰にもある

fireworks in the night sky in July
fireworks in the night sky in August
now it's cold I'm alone in my room
my heart be burning but my hands be freezing
girl, I don't know if you love me
but if you're playing games don't bother
cause I got girls calling a couple offers
but I turn them down for us
cause still believe in you

still believe in you

秘密の一つや二つは
は誰にもある
Track Name: home
6. [HOME]

listen, I was born in 1977, Downtown Eastside, the ghetto
so now you see far I've come, listen

my home is a home shared with thousands of homeless
thousands of hopeless, souls are destroyed in
people have a story to tell but they are voiceless
too busy getting high to get away from the noises
look into my eyes, see a kid from the ghetto
a sadness that lies at the depth of my core
I call it a life, you call it a waste of talent
but you don't see the hardships that I faced

I use to have it hard and then I had it easy
and now I'm right back to barely even breathing
friends come and go and parents start to die
and you're left all alone in your prayers asking why
things you once believed in start ripping at the seams
and the goals you once strived for start looking like dreams
not close, so far, like a distant mirage
like with each step you take you're getting closer to the stars

my home is a home shared with thousands of homeless
thousands of hopeless, souls are destroyed in
people have a story to tell but they are voiceless
too busy getting high to get away from the noises
look into my eyes, see a kid from the ghetto
a sadness that lies at the depth of my core
I call it a life, you call it a waste of talent
but you don't see the hardships that I faced

my start wasn't pretty, I was born in the ghetto
with the drugs and the alcohol and hoes in stilettos
I was born as an Asian not Black or Caucasian
with no real heroes and no Gods to believe in
saw a lot of sadness in the eyes all around me
my parents, my neighbors, my teachers, drug dealers
Downtown Eastside, the heart of Vancouver
behind the pretty smile is a sight you ain't use to

behind the pretty smile is a sight you ain't use to
behind my fake smile is a sight you ain't use to

one more time
now you know how far I've come, so listen
my home is a home shared with thousands of homeless
thousands of hopeless, souls are destroyed in
people have a story to tell but they are voiceless
too busy getting high to get away from the noises
look into my eyes, see a kid from the ghetto
a sadness that lies at the depth of my core
I call it a life, you call it a waste of talent
but you don't see the hardships that I faced
Track Name: konnichiwa
7. [KONNICHIWA BITCHES]

konnichiwa bitches, take a picture now cause I'll be gone later never to be found

I'm in a maze in this gutter that we call life
I live with the devil in a woman called wife
my friends are okay but they don't understand
what it's like to live in depression, I'm underwhelmed
prozac in my veins got me feeling better
prozac in my veins is why I'm feeling better
the world don't change, only the dialect
I traveled all around the world, are we tired yet?

konnichiwa bitches, take a picture now cause I'll be gone later never to be found

bonjour mother fuckers, you can stab me now
cause I'll be watching you as you hesitate
bonjour mother fuckers, you can stab me now
cause I'll be watching you as you hesitate

konnichiwa bitches
bonjour mother fuckers

白いキャンバスを真っ黒に
黒いキャンバスを真っ白に
だけどそんな上手くはいかない
だからキャンバス自体を破壊
rage against the 機械と人間
rage against the 親とgovernment
mother fucker fuck you とか言っても
そんなことで世の中は変わらん

こんにちは bitches
take a picture now
cause I'll be gone later never to be found
Track Name: monster
8. [MONSTER]

a couple pills to ease the pain
more ups and downs it's the same old thing
I cling to love but it fucks me up
the more I cling the more I drop

ain't got no time or space to breathe
my sanity plays hide and seek
every door I open the pain just gets deeper
I'm looking for a sign but I don't see her

2012年 数々の出会い
放れた親友 また See you again
大変だった 今年は ホント
毎年 そうさ そんなようなモンスター
弱音ばっかで 笑えるよね...
よくわからねぇ 残りの人生
いいこともあった 今思えば
コーナーがあるから 立てるボクサー

世界は変だ 不安定な回転
窓を開けても またそこにカーテン
勝てないジョーカー
悪くないBandit
腕には時計じゃなく くすみ なんです
手を上げても届かない skies 
答えらしきものは 見えてこない

a couple pills to ease the pain
more ups and downs it's the same old thing
I cling to love but it fucks me up
the more I cling the more I drop

ain’t got no time or space to breathe
my sanity plays hide and seek
every door I open the pain just gets deeper
I'm looking for a sign but I don't see her

ガラクタなモンスター
意味があるようで 意味は無い
これがMy Life  これがMy Rhymes
進むしかない Until the day that I die
残すものなんて 一つも無い
使った曲だっていつかはFade out
ロウソクの煙 甘苦いFlavour
必死に生きてるやつらはヘッズアップ!

a couple pills to ease the pain
more ups and downs it's the same old thing
I cling to love but it fucks me up
the more I cling the more I drop
Track Name: one fire
9. [ONE FIRE]

since the world keeps turning I'm a little bit dizzy
keep my mind preoccupied a little bit busy
sometimes I'm lazy sometimes I'm coasting
but often times I'm just right here writing rhymes
cause when I'm writing rhymes I'm not thinking about you
and when I'm not thinking about you I ain't that blue
I'm not saying you're bad, I'm not saying I'm right
not saying you're wrong, not saying I might
take you back if given the chance, I probably wouldn't
like booze after an aspirin I probably shouldn't
we got one life, we got just one fire
and when the passion runs out, it's the death of desire

we got one life we got just one fire
when the passion runs out it's the death of desire
we got one life we got just one fire
when the moment is gone, it's one final sayonara

love is a crime, some say it's a blessing
I'm really not sure but it's some sort of lesson
it's ongoing though our partners may change
and the sex is always constant though the apartments may change
if it started with a kiss then our emotions were the fuel
that kept the fire ignited, that kept it all exciting
they say I'm suicidal, I say you're all fucking wrong
I just live it how I see it cause my emotions are strong

cause love is illusion

love is delusion
love is hate
love is fatal
love is fake
love is a test
to that I attest
love is God

one life we got just one fire
when the passion runs out it's the death of desire
we got one life we got just one fire
when the moment is gone, it's one final sayonara
Track Name: sandcastles
10. [SANDCASTLES]

I was always a strange little kid
thought about dark things, thought about death
everybody seems to love sad movies
yet nobody really took the time to get to know me
the world don't revolve around love
that never made sense at least to this child
my moms and pops never talked at home
the silence was deafening, the silence is comforting

and like every sunrise is followed by the sunset
and every sandcastle is taken by the sea

in my own world, sheltered from the world
but in my own world I don't feel a thing
happiness comes in the blink of a moment
and sadness dwells in my heart so lonely
now I'm older in my mid thirties
I still wear clothes that smell a little dirty
homeless with a home, hopeless with some hope
so don't refuse me, let me in
don't tell me it's over, I'm ready to begin
it looks like I don't care, I'm trying to fit in
believe me, believe me

and like every sunrise is followed by the sunset
and every sandcastle is taken by the sea

I say to God, please save them
don't worry about me
save them
don't worry about me

I'll be okay somehow, someday
I'll be okay somehow, someday
Track Name: smoke in mirrors
11. [SMOKE IN MIRRORS]

did I ever tell ya ya look like an angel
upside down our lives rearranged now
our lives pass by we never notice
we keep looking back unfocused
I hate this, do you like it?
A life without God is so lonely
A life without love is so lonely
A life without you is so lonely

If Love is a temple than I am it`s slave
and you were my wine in the darkest of days
if you were an angel than I was your halo
so why did I hurt you like the thorns in your temple
it`s all just a mystery, at least it is to me
and I'm still wondering if you're still missing me


I scribble pictures on the wall
my writings in my notes
but right when I get close
everything disappears
I thought I saw a picture
a vision and a dream
I guess that`s what it was
a vision in a dream

Maybe I was silent
when you needed to hear
and maybe I was absent
when you needed me there
like a mirage, only there for a moment
and I lost it...

did I ever tell ya ya look like an angel
upside down our lives rearranged now
our lives pass by we never notice
we keep looking back unfocused
I hate this, do you like it?

A life without God is so lonely
A life without love is so lonely
A life without you is so lonely

A life without God is so lonely
A life without love is so lonely
A life without you is so lonely
A life without you is so lonely
Track Name: the silence and the sadness
12. [THE SILENCE AND THE SADNESS]

I keep on trying but I keep on dying
everything I touch seems to turn to dust
and everything I do seems to go in reverse
everything I say's just another curse
I don't wanna hurt you so I don't speak words
and barely move at all so I don't make it worse
every moment alive is a moment too much
I despise the present and fear the future is worse

I keep feeling like I'm walking into fucking walls
the bleeding never stops gushing like a waterfall
watching people sell their souls like a fucking mall
listen to metal, bang my head, screaming kill 'em all

I keep on trying but I keep on dying
everything I touch seems to turn to dust
and everything I do seems to go in reverse
everything I say's just another curse
I don't wanna hurt you so I don't speak words
and barely move at all so I don't make it worse
every moment alive is a moment too much
I despise the present and fear the future is worse

I pass my time by being idle cursing life itself
yet I am so full of emotions waiting to get out
in a burst of flames my anger will ignite itself
don't be close cause if you are you're gonna hurt yourself

I keep on trying but I keep on dying
everything I touch seems to turn to dust
and everything I do seems to go in reverse
everything I say's just another curse
I don't wanna hurt you so I don't speak words
and barely move at all so I don't make it worse
every moment alive is a moment too much
I despise the present and fear the future is worse
Track Name: touch click
13. [TOUCH CLICK] *Japanese

やっとhustling hustling
やっとhustling hustling
やっとmaking money, trying to make money
hustling

are you hustling?

努力

tying to go to sleep but my dosage kind of low
I still love you but the love is kind of low
don't blame you, not for a single thing
すべては僕一人の責任
二十歳を過ぎてJapan ここ東京
部屋を借りて 働いて
週6毎日朝から深夜
女と遊べる金も稼いだ
I had few friends I was busy making money
心の空洞に気づかずeveryday hustling just hustling ...
so are you hustling?
so are you hustling? my friend

地味な努力でprops two times
遊ばず負けてる奴らはcrime
人生ゲーム Russian Roulette
銃をtemple にtouch して click

地味な努力でprops two times
遊ばず負けてる奴らはcrime
人生ゲーム Russian Roulette
銃をtemple にtouch して click

touch して click

are you hustling? my friends
are you hustling? my friends

hustle, hustle, hustling やはり眠れない
やらなきゃ愚痴になる だからトライ
他人の言葉の重みはゼロ
自分主人公 自分がヒーロー
blame yourself, blame nobody else
結局死んだら all by yourself だろ?

so are you hustling? my friends

hustling? my friends

努力
夢 とか
努力


地味な努力でprops two times
遊ばず負けてる奴らはcrime
人生ゲーム Russian Roulette
銃をtemple にtouch して click

銃をtemple にtouch して click

so are you really hustling?
銃をtemple にtouch して click....

人生はRussian Roulette
銃をtemple にtouch して click... click
Track Name: we gets high
14. [WE GETS HIGH]

on a Monday we gets high
on a Tuesday we gets high
on a Wednesday we gets high
on a Thursday we gets high
on a Friday we gets high
on a Saturday we gets high
on a Sunday we gets high
in other words we get high all the time

I don't even do drugs but I gets high
I don't even have sex but I come hard
I ain't even a rapper but I rap better than most
I'm not sad but I make sad songs sometimes
I'm not rich but I spend its all
I'm a loser but I get them chicks
with tiny waists but big butt cheeks
big breasts and an itty bitty face
I'm not sexist I'm just sexy
I don't got time but I got rolexes
on my wrists and on her wrists all gold
better looking then my dad I'm told
job shitty but I got big dreams
out the hood still wearing baggy jeans
a heart so pure 24 karat gold
I'm so high but I'm gonna deny

on a Monday we gets high
on a Tuesday we gets high
on a Wednesday we gets high
on a Thursday we gets high
on a Friday we gets high
on a Saturday we gets high
on a Sunday we gets high
in other words we get high all the time